Dark

What for forcing myself to get out from the darkness?
No one will appreciate.
And I will continue suffering.

Let's face the truth.
I belong to the dark side.
I enjoyed drawing on my skin
I enjoyed seeing the scars...
They are so beautiful
So artistic
It's another way of expressing art...
I'm an artist anyway

I don't like to hurt people.
but hurting own self is kinda enjoyable.
When you feel the physical pain.
You will no longer remember the pain which stay deep inside your heart
They will never fade away
And no one will know

This world don't accept me
I don't belong to this world.
So should I just leave here
And search for the place where i belong


I'm sentimental.
I'm sensitive.
I'm emotional.
I'm negative.
Too much emotions that I'm unable to take care of it.
I didn't trained to manage these emotions properly.

Since young
I release all my emotions through physical pain.
When I grow older
I know that's not the correct things to do
And I try to avoid
Hide all my emotions
Fake a smile and approach to people

That's the way to socialize with people
that's what people told me

But
My efforts are not appreciated
This world don't want me
This world don't understand me
although I try so hard to survive in this world
But seems like It won't work.
No matter what I did
I'm still belonging to the darkness
My own small corner
The Hell

I will cry
Cry till the day that I become blind.